Screw it.

Screw it. I should've known better. I should've known that watching the videos would make me think of you. But no, i tried to out-beat my own intelligence. Thinking that i would be able to get over it, i watched the videos. Stupid stupid stupid me. I should've known. I shouldn't have done it. I shouldn't have. Now i regret it. I wish time could pass faster. I wish God would grant my wish, my prayer. It's stupid of me, call me foolish, call me desperate, whatever. I really really really like you. I wish you were here. I really wish you were here. & no, i'm not giving up.