Screw it.

I am feeling damn sick now.
Really damn sick now. I feel like puking myself.
I don't feel like doing anything.
I just wanna breakaway.

I don't feel stressed about exams at all.
Because i don't even know what i want to do with my life.
I don't know my direction.
So what if i know my direction, it's unrealistic.
I know it, & people have been telling it to me.
I've got no goals.
My life is screwed.
Whatever.

I know i'm crazy to say "i miss you".
How can i trust when there was no us?
You are there, i am here.
I have no idea what's up with your life. You have no idea i'm sulking here.
This is insanity. I don't know what i'm doing.
I have no idea why i'm hanging on.
I'm feeling a surge of depression.
Emo sucks. Emo is nuts.
Screw it all.

I didn't go to school today.
I didn't feel like it.
Kirk sent me a very fierce sms.
"F***! Why didn't you come?"

I replied, "Decided not to go in the end"

He replied "I hope you fail your os"

That struck me hard. I'm feeling very very guilty now.
I don't know what i'm doing with my life.
This is stupid.
I have to study. I have to study.

Easy i follow, easy i trust.
I fall so fast. Too fast for anyone to even grab me back.
I walk out of line so fast that its hard for him to pull me back.