Screw it.

Can you hear my heart calling?

These are the times when i really really feel like talking to you.

Am i just gonna let pride get in the way.

Or am i going to put it aside, pick up the phone.

Apologize & beg you to talk to me? 

I really really miss you.

I don't even know what went wrong to begin with.

(But you'll never see the tears i cry at night, for you)

OKAY.

School today basically, sucked.

Only Rehearsals were the best part of the day.

Or should i say my nap time was the best part of the day..?

So like, i reached school at 730am.

Thought i was supposed to have lessons.

But as i walk in the school gate, with my hair let down.., 

I see Ruben & Aaron mocking me. -.-

They were like: "Oi, why you come school so early?"

I was like.. (point middle finger) "what?!"

Yup thats when i found out that...

I didn't have to go school that early.

I was only supposed to go at 945am. :D

Wonderful isn't it? 

Boooooo..

So i spent the morning, using the computer in the school's comp lab.

Yes, we sneaked in.

(That's the devotion spirit!)

ANYHOOS.

Then had SPA.

My practical totally sucked.

I think i'm going to get a 0 for the test.

I'm serious.

My science is horrigible....

& then i waited another 1 hour for rehearsals to start.

Stayed in the school library.

Used the computer.

That's when i found out some heartbreaking news.

Hahaha.

Wait, i'm supposed to be happy right?

Carl, you're seriously everything i'm wanting.

Hmm.

I don't wanna rant much on that.

Screw you.

So anyway.

Had rehearsals.

It went well. Not like i expected.

Competition date is on Monday! Not Tuesday no more.

GOSH GOSH GOSH.

God, please.

Let this come through for me.

No matter the expenses, please let me get in.

Scholarship, whatsoever.. I'll work hard for it. Please!!

I really want this. I want this degree! 

Amen.

Yeah so went home.

Slept. Drowned my sorrows in alcohol (i wish)

Nah, i left my sorrows in my dreams.

Woke up.

Got a hold of myself. 

Decided to focus on my studies & of course getting into Lasalle.

I want to do Theatre Arts. Then i was thinking of Musicals.

Niceeee...

Acting.. My forte. love it.

Maybe it isn't time yet.

Perhaps time will prove everything.

Maybe it's time for me to just focus on my studies & nothing else.

Maybe we weren't meant to be.

Maybe maybe maybe.

Maybe one day you'll be mine.

Can you hear my heart calling?