Screw it.

I'm exhausted. :(
chat with yunting last night from 3am plus till 6am, haha. conferenced with shilin too. -BIG SMILES-

then Terrance called in to conference. haha.

chat all the way till 6am. & they all slept but i cldnt sleep. so, i laid in bed & think of honey. :D i miss him so much. last night they were all talking bout r/ships. i've chosen you & so i will stick to it, with no regrets & no turning back. i really really want to see him again, but everytime i do, i get emo. haha. crazy isn't it? contradicting aye. i just don't think i'm suitable for him. as in, he can do so much better off with another girl. i mean, he is just handsome and charming and charismatic, what about me? i'm no where near that. in chinese, it's "pei bu shang". i really think that way. i don't know what will happen in the future but i'll still keep praying & believing that everything's gonna work out fine.

yt & i gonna get our tattoos done next week i think. yayy. i think i know what i'm gonna put. :D
whoots. tattoo ____ on my heart. hehehe. -.-

argh! i dont know why i'm so awake! i wanna sleep. but i can't get to sleep. i know i'm tired. sighs. feel like staying out tonight. gaygay didnt reply my msg last night cos he has slept already. haha. alvin says he doesnt mind, but where to over night. terrance also dont mind. but yt & sl can't. sighs. dont know whether i shld stay over night tonight. or maybe i shld stay at home then tmr proceed to the chalet. hmm..... or maybe i'll go later. i feel very bad. becos of this chalet thing, daddy spent alot of money. i mean, we just came back from the holiday & he is spending again on me for the chalet. sighs. i wanted to come out the money on my own, but he refuses. he doesnt wanna take the money out from my bank! >:(

20th dxo. yayy. 16th may not be underage, so we all may not be going. wheee. 20th dxo. :D


i really really miss you.