Screw it.

Had a discussion with daddy last night. Regarding ballet. He was, well, rather supportive of me learning dance. Because I was really serious about it, I told him my ambition and stuff. Then he was like, good for you.

But told mommy over dinner just now, & she disapproved. Hmm, I still don't quite her reason, but yeah. Oh well, I shall pray over it. She was like, "why do you want to learn ballet?" I'm like, "for the basics? i mean, who would wanna hire you to be a professional if you don't even have the basics?" and she said, "if you have true and good talent" & i felt that what she said was true. So yeah, oh well. I shall just wait for an opening..

Anyway,
was really bored today,
met xin ni at causeway point, around 4plus. walked around, then like 15mins later gabriel reached. so yep, said byebye to xin ni. met gabriel and shaojun went off to work. shaojun is getting more and more handsome lah! haha. gabriel too. :D
*y'all better start saying i'm getting prettier okay!*

So then slacked at causeway with gabriel, saw these 2 freak girls. The whole scene was hilarious. Haha. :D

Then alvin finally arrived, walked around, looked for someone. Hahahah, and we all felt super shy. Then, went to the carpark and slacked. Super windy today man! Left around 6plus. Needed to go home for dinner.

But i didn't even eat dinner lah. Just didn't have the appetite, though it was my favourite, spaghetti. Sigh, guess i'm really emo this time.

Never felt this way in a longggg time. Suddenly feel that ____ has changed alot. I don't know. But aiyah, I also don't wanna think too much, I'm always getting used at the end of the day anyway.

I keep thinking of you, and the feeling sucks. Really, the feeling of knowing that you are not mine, sucks. I hate this feeling. I wonder if there's ever US. Every smile i'm giving is fake. There's a reason why they say that we should give it time, but time is not enough. And that's the reason why, when you're young you fall in love. Argh, i really hate this feeling !

I don't wanna rush into things as well, I keep thinking about the bad qualities people keep telling me about you, but i just can't control this feeling i have. I want it out of my life. I feel bad towards____. As though i'm not keeping my promise. But still, i know, what i want.

Was supposed to meet Dingjie and gang, but they gave me aeroplane -.-
So they're all apologising to me through sms now. Okay, i've to admit, i was pissed at first, but haha, after their apology, i'm okay. Maybe what yunting said was right, I'm too forgiving? That's how i always end up the one hurting.

You're worth the fight, but I can't fight forever. I gotta get your memory out of my head.
A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe. And leaves before she is left.

You really don't know how much I wish you're by my side NOW.











Do i really have to let go of all the colorful memories you've given?